DREAM OF THE BEAT HOTEL by Dennis Doph

because why? 22

I dreamed I was a flexibly receiving buttboy
at the legendary Beat Hotel Run-down
Shitsmeared edifice at 9 Rue Git-le-Coeur
Why was I wasting my time
Jerking my happy boy-cock's life away
There in endlessly rainy Everett Wash.
While I could have been servicing
Bill Burroughs Gregory Corso Brion Gysin
Most of all bodacious Harold Norse
There on the dirty cumstained floors
of the Beat Hotel

I could have been their little teenage queen
Sucking cock among greats and near-greats
Servicing them
while they cut up page after page
of overworked verbs and adjectives

I could have pushed that Indochinese lady
out the window
Laughed as I heard her scream and fall
I could have donned her Cochinchinese silk pants
Descended the stairs to the applause of the Hearties
I would have sucked Bill Burroughs' patrician
thin cock
As he contemplated my perfect butt cleavage
Sloping into the Indochinese lady's silk pants

I would have been the one who made
prophetic utterances
I would have moaned as I allowed them
one by one
To defile my virgin baby butt
I would have let Corso hump his fat Guinea cock
into my mouth
Would have sucked him dry
begged for more
Just to assure my rightful place
in the pantheon of Beat Culture

I would have been Numero Uno of the buttfucked boys
who came like bombs
Would have waited trembling in my fusty room
While the sexgiant Harold Norse brought
His long muscled legs Legs portrayed
Over and over by Cocteau
Long legs Long strong dick into my room
Had his way with me Then jerked off on me
for good measure

But no
I had to be a good boy Go on beating my
fucking brains out
To make Phi Beta Kappa at the U of W
Instead of letting my mouth and butt be used
over and over
By the greats and near-greats of Beat Literature

So what did I achieve doing
the opposite of what I should have done
Nothing
Except to whet my appetite for the devastating
sexobject I should have been
Now I'm trying to make up for it
Rattling away on this fucking PC
While in San Francisco
Ferlinghetti the sole survivor is droning away
Last rites for legendarily well hung Harold Norse
Who should have fucked me
while I was still fuckable